Reflecting into my Life

Lying in my bed in a seemingly ordinary day of my life reflecting on my mother's words, a surge for letting something off gets me typing. Sometimes one just need a little thinking on what to let out, get started on writing your minds out immediately and click that publish post button. But I know my life means something more than that. I remember vaguely my mother once said something to me, "If you got some problems, you can always come home". I have always respected the greatness of the never-failing love a mother is constantly showing to her own child, especially being borned as the eldest in the family, it means so much more to me. I adore my mother very much just because she is the person I have been relying on ever since I have been borned as an infant. My mother's love have always been a small mirror of the greater love of God. Even with that, it comforts me very much when I seem to be in the midst of a confusion. However great a mother's love may mean to me, God's unconditional love just often come into my mind whenever I ponder upon the word "love". A series of events have always been rolled out in a sequence in a person's life, may it be tragedies or unthinkable happenings or others. Maybe my life happenings fall into the latter. Everyone seems to have a personal firewall of their own in their ongoing life, but I know for certain that God have always known our shortcomings and weaknesses. When something uncomfortable just so happens to crossover into our path of life, something bounds to happen. It all boils down to our way of life and our relationship with God. When it hurts, it really does hurt just because God knows it hurts you. When God wants to shape one's way of life, something that is interfering with God's plan in that person's life has to die. Only with that then can be our life be strengthened and renewed again and again. My life may have been in an upheaval and gone through darker times, God just so have always walked with me through it. Sometimes I may have bore a grudge against God, or even seething hatred, it is because I cannot hate anyone but God. To put it into simpler terms, why hate other people because they seems to not have anything to do with your problems at all. With that I know that God have always been the closest friend in my life. The finite cannot understand the infinite. I am grateful to be able to understand even a fraction of God's love. The laws of all laws share a common trait, it is that they all have something to do with the word "love". To all those who have known me personally, I may have failed as a Christian in my life because of the inability to attend the weekly worship services or gatherings. I know for certain I will end up in the services with everyone else again. Life seems to go out of hand lately, doing favours for everyone who wants me to help them or do some other things. With that something comes into my mind, "Ask and you will be given". I strive to do just that for everyone who asks for my help. I hope that I am not doing favours, but to try to reflect God's love to people around me. Life seems to be in the eternities when day becomes night and night becomes day. Chores are repeating for themselves in the ongoing days of my life. My life may have been folded out in deceptions and the so-called "white-lies", but I know it will be changed and be reshaped again. I may have seen or heard much to a degree of being in a state of ignorance, but deep down in my heart I know that God have seen and heard so much more. I can picture that God have always been caring for what he have seen or heard, be it a very heartbreaking event or a joyous one. Walking steadfastly in my journey of life for two decades plus one year, I know I have nothing to boast about except for the love of God that have been shown to me time and time again. Signing off before the first day of my final exams, got to do some studying later. To everyone who just so happens to stumble upon this post, I pray that it will give even a little thought provoking time to you because I have been given one too.